Outside the basement, I had two plants hanging. They died over the summer and I took them down. A spider made a hell of a web on one of them. It made a neat hole in the web down into the dirt.
A month ago we decided to replant some stuff – our last planting before autumn. I needed one of the pots from outside. I grabbed the one with the spider web. I destroyed it. I dumped the dirt out, clean the pot, fought off the dozen or so banana spiders.
But I left the other pot there.
Today, I walked outside to get some
firewood. I had stupidly left all the wood outside and since we’ve had a foot of rain this past month, I realized I should bring some in so when have our first cold nights, I could build a fire.
I noticed something.
The second pot on the ground. It had a web on it now. I looked and it was damn near the same web and setup from the other pot. I can’t be sure if it was the same spider, but it struck me.
It showed me something.
You can’t give up.
If someone comes along and knocks you down, you do have to get back up. You have to brush yourself off and go.
Nature told that spider it needed to find a new place to call home. And if I moved the pot and ruined the web, the spider would find another home. Because that’s how it survives.
I also come with some sad news. Yesterday, I was let go from my day job. Before anyone posts about being sorry, no need. I welcomed it, and not in a bitter way. I won’t get into my opinions here, but the US economy is still bad. It’s weak, top heavy, if you will. And sadly, small companies (like then one I worked for) have become the middle class for business… meaning they are left out to dry.
I knew the position the company had to take with me because I was the guy reporting the numbers. I saw them every day. Hell, I was paid to report the numbers. So it came as no shock when the decision came down for me to go.
My web, in a sense, has been messed up.
Will I crawl away and die?
I’ll make a new web. I’ll survive.
The bad… is obvious. No job, no paycheck.
However, no job means more time.
So, for those out there who thought I had a full plate before, heh, you haven’t seen unemployed Jim yet.
Be ready, because the web I’m going to weave now is going to be to huge. And sturdy.
Oh, and if I’m staying in this metaphorical spider thing… I’m weaving a few webs. Just in case one gets ruined.
Because nature tells me to survive, but my brain tells me how to survive.